Living With Alexithymia: I Don’t Know What I’m Feeling, But There’s a Lot of It

“Wow, you’re so self-aware,” said the neuropsychologist during the interview portion of my autism assessment.

“I’m really not,” I replied, and went on to clumsily explain that I was only applying my current understandings to previous periods in my life retroactively, much like adults do when describing their own childhoods.